Days of steely ice cold, cold wind, like a sharp arrow pierced my cheek, also hurt my heart. 

Contemplating the black butterfly, across the baptism of fire, tireless sky flutter and, along with the old west. 

Tears, nuskin hk routed the all lines, rushed out. Salty, bitter, astringent and coming... 

More than ten years past, scenes flashed through my mind. Kindly smile, warm caress, long beads, thick books... Is very sweet, and all of these will be gone and does not return. 

Grandma has always been the faithful believers of Buddhism, her house has the statue of Buddha, Buddha's portrait, and red thick candle,... Everything is quiet and serene. Seem to is a kind of power in the house, a kind of the forces that can be erased all blundering heart and nervous. Nowadays, people go to the house empty, everything is obscure. On the boring and sad, thick. Silently tell yourself this is dream, dream is reverse. Trying to get out of this dull sad dream, good early to buy breakfast for my grandmother. However, mother and relatives cry red eyes, busy figure, nuskin hk harsh sound building-would... 

I have to admit, I'm not a grandmother. 

In my lonely helpless childhood, my grandmother gave me the parents can't give love, for my young mind, sun dotted out patches of haze, let my childhood a bit less helpless. 

I am lonely stubborn character since I was a child, I did it my way. Things don't go too much back others reasons, but also to other people about my confused and disdain, nor to seek other people to my misunderstanding now resolved. Since the childhood life is like in a black porcelain cup of ice water, without any ripple, like a pool of stagnant water. Always like a inferior hedgehog, because of fear so erect spikes thorns, humble abode in opposite corners of life. Few friends, depressive life sometimes let a person hard to breath. Is grandma, that I had anyone to talk to, have a break. 

Often run into trouble, nuskin hk always want to have a chat and grandma. Every time my grandmother always listen to me whine, quietly listen to what I say goes wrong. Then give me a lot of good. Sibbhult regarded me with pity, and give me a reason, those ancient fable, say those words to the essentials of the buddhist scriptures. 

Only my grandmother would indulge me without limit. 

And now... 

Won't someone seriously said to me baby girl is better than NanWa stronger; Won't someone to pull me to live my cold hand and sit down and asked me to sit the changes in temperature, cold cough of themselves; No artificial I secretly leave fruit snacks, bad also to eat; Won't someone is I said that being unreasonable dotard, nuskin hk were happy to say I spirit gear tooth him out of the door will not be bullied; Won't someone in order to I can get in a good school, morning and evening prayer to chant buddhist scripture; Won't someone... 

I'm not Anderson, not fairy tales forever. Grandmother walked out of, out of the fairy tale, I only just left me a veil, covered my sunshine.